Being Present

Sometimes when you listen to the things that make the least sense, you find your answer.

We got back from vacation a few weeks ago and hit the ground running.  Jumped right back in to the daily grind but rested and more focused.  Mr. Fabulous and I both run our own businesses and when we are overwhelmed, behind and to busy we constantly remind ourselves what a blessing that really is.  It would be awful to have it the other way around.
Our vacation was more than just a vacation for us.  It was more like the start of moving forward and letting the sadness of the past 2 years go.  We have talked many times about being more present in the moment and making time for our family and using the valuable lessons that life has taught us recently.  It has been a nice change around here.  There has been a peace and love within our home that has brought us all so much closer.

Reagan pretending to do yoga

I am a believer that every moment has an intentional purpose in our lives.  For what we are living in the moment or what is to come.  It is easy to forget that in all of the hustle and bustle surrounding us but the past few weeks have been different.  We have all been very aware of everything and this morning as I sit here and reminisce I see why.

Reagan and his personal pizza (lol) 

We are going on day 8 of Rotten #2 not being able to walk.  So far there is no explanation and we are hoping to get some answers tomorrow.  As the days go by the concern is growing deeper and his condition is worsening.  By yesterday we were all pretty emotionally and physically spent.  The appointments are exhausting, the sad looks are scary, the unknown is even scarier.  One of us sleeps with Reagan and one of us sleeps on the couch.  Someone is with him at all times.  That has left us very little time to come together as parents and share our thoughts and feelings.  We both went to bed separately last night with heavy hearts.
In the middle of the night Mr. Fabulous and I got woke up.  Without trying to explain the unexplainable it made it so we had to turn on lights, go outside and eventually sit together in the living room alone and ended up spending and hour and a half talking about everything.  About 1 hour in we realized that what happened and it did so because we needed that time as parents and husband and wife to discuss what was going on and share our feelings.  Without a doubt we know an angel stepped in and made us make that uninterrupted time.  We went back to bed with peace in our hearts knowing that no matter what the outcome of all of this we will be okay.  We will get through it together and that there is a reason for this path that is in front of us right now.
I am not a religious person but there are some things I know for certain.  God exists and he is here with us all at all times no matter what your religious beliefs may be.  The moment I let go of wondering about religion is when I realized that my belief in God would be the same no matter the church I belong to.  I also believe there are angels around us at all times.  Sjon left us last August but has been ever present in our lives every day.  Really knowing these things is what will help us make the decisions we have to make.  Knowing we are never alone and when Reagan is struggling that he has a guardian angel by his side makes everything okay.
This morning we woke a with peaceful hearts grateful for the events of last night and for our beautiful family.  We are all here together a little shook up but happy and ready to face whatever comes our way, together.