If you pray...

So I am not one of those 'put it all out there people' you may be laughing and think… well umm you have a blog and dump your business daily on here helloooo! Seriously though when it comes down to the BIG things I tend to keep things in.

The last few days I have realized that I need your support and help more than ever and for those of you who already know, you have come through like I could never imagine.

Friday night my middle son Reagan came home covered in bruises that he did not know where they came from. He has also had weakness and fatigue as well as some stomach issues. So saturday we took him into the family doctor. They ran some tests on him and examined him. The tests came back not so good but they were not crazy admit him to the hospital bad. The doctor asked Reagan to go out and discussed the slight possibility of lymphoma or leukemia. My world came to a screeching halt.

Tuesday we went in for more tests and I made an appointment for a second opinion with a pediatrician wednesday morning.

This morning the doctor called and let me know the pathologist/hematologist decided that his blood cells looked like possible early blasts (apparently a sign of leukemia) and could not rule out lymphoma or leukemia so suggested we go see an oncologist. I told the doctor how I was getting a second opinion and he immediately got on the phone with the pediatrician and now the doctors and the oncologist are working together to figure this out.

Today they had us do many more tests and so far so good but the 1 single determining test that was requested by the oncologist is still out there. It apparently takes 24-48 hours to get back. If it comes back positive we go straight to the children's hospital to see the oncologist. If it is negative then they will rule out lymphoma and leukemia and we can relax while we figure out what is going on.

As you can imagine I have been all over the place. We have had ups and downs and feel completely numb, afraid and hopeful all at the same time. It is a horrible place to be but here we are. Things have not looked great but to me we have a 50-50% chance on this last test that we are waiting on. So we are praying for the test to be negative and have the possiblity of this put to rest.

I am not the most religious person but I have strong beliefs. I honestly believe in the power of prayer and I ask that if you pray that you will send out a little prayer for us.

Within 24-48 hours we will have one of the biggest reliefs of our lives or have a journey that we will just have to take whether we understand it or not. I know what we want and I know what we wish for our son but at the same time I know I am not in control of these things.

To all of you who have been sending your well wishes thank you from the bottom of our hearts. We feel your love and appreciate each one of you.

If I could ask 1 thing from you right now is to hug those who are dear to you because things change in the blink of an eye. This is a reminder to us no matter what the outcome. I can tell you 48 hours from now I will forever hold my children a little closer, say I love you to much and hopefully thank God this was all just a scare.

Much Love
Shannon